It was a long few weeks for Fire midfielder Micheal Azira and defender Johan Kappelhof.
The pair -- out with injuries -- were forced to stay behind while the rest of their teammates participated in the recently completed MLS is Back Tournament in Orlando.
âYou feel like thereâs something wrong,â Azira said. âYouâre supposed to be with the team, but youâre not there.â
That feeling has made their respective presences at training all the more welcome amid the Fireâs return to Chicago and their on-going preparation for the leagueâs continuation of regular season play.
âIt feels good to get back with the team,â Azira said. âYou feel like youâre part of something. Unlike the other days, when youâre just training by yourself or with another player, just two of you on an entire field. It feels great now to be back with the guys and get back in the grind.â
âIt was like new,â Kappelhof added. âItâs been a long time. I havenât been back in full team training since the (COVID-19) crisis, so it was good to be back with the team and have some drills with them.â
While Kappelhof continues to rehab individually and in small group drills, he feels close to returning to complete participation at training. Azira has been fully cleared, and is enjoying being surrounded by his teammates again.
âTo have them in the locker room and to get that brotherhood you have - talking to each other, goofing off - then going on the field and working hard and playing for each other, itâs really great,â Azira said. â(Head Coach) Rapha (Wicky) does a good job of trying to bring everyone together and being positive and encouraging everyone. It feels great to be back.â
âIt was a long time, but it was good to be back with the guys and support them, to find the rhythm again,â Kappelhof said. âThe group feeling has to grow again, you know? Thatâs what we try to work on. The guys were very supportive. They understand my tough situation.â
Kappelhof, the teamâs longest-tenured player, has been somewhat of an iron man during his time in Chicago. Rarely injured, heâs averaged 31 appearances per season over his first four years in MLS. However, during his time at home amid MLSâ suspension of regular season play, the 30-year-old defender suffered a leg injury -- one that has slowed his return to full team workouts since training resumed in June.
âI had video calls with the physical trainers, and was trying to do some exercises they gave me through the video call, and thatâs it,â Kappelhof said. âI tried to treat myself, but itâs not ideal.â
Azira had his tournament participation pulled out from underneath him on the morning the team was set to depart for Florida. During a training session prior to their flight, the midfielder took a shot to the eye that required immediate attention.
âIt happened on the very day that we were supposed to travel,â he said. âWhen I got hit in the eye, I was like, âIâll be OK.â But with internal bleeding, within a few minutes Iâd lost my sight.â
From there, his expected recovery time of two weeks -- when combined with a potential mandatory quarantine upon arrival in Orlando -- erased his hopes of joining up with his teammates for the tournament.
âI was like, âYou know, I need to stay positive and have the right mentality and focus on recovering and hopefully Iâll join the team after,ââ he said. âAfter I got cleared by the doctors, they said, âMicheal, you canât travel. When you travel, youâll be quarantined by yourself and you wonât be able to train with the team.â So, the coaches had a decision to make, and they thought it wasnât a good idea to come there.â
âIt was a bummer, but at the end of the day things happen and you learn from these things. I got some time with my family, which is very important. Thereâs some bad, and then thereâs some good in it. Itâs about perspective.â
That perspective is key for any injured player. Time away from the group can often lead to a sense of isolation as players work to recover their fitness in individual rehab sessions away from the full team. With their teammates and the majority of the technical and training staff gone for weeks in Orlando, Azira and Kappelhof found themselves together combatting that creeping feeling of being left behind.
âIt felt like a big distance, literally, between me and the team,â Kappelhof said. âBecause I hadnât been in team training for a while, it felt different. I couldnât help the team, but it was good to see the team play again.â
âThat was really hard,â Azira said. âTo watch your teammates on TV, and youâre at home? Something is not right. Why am I here and theyâre down there? Iâm supposed to be there. Iâm supposed to be the best teammate I can be, close to my teammates. I should be in Orlando. I should be there cheering my friends and contributing on the field.â
âIt was tough, but I just wanted to stay positive and not choose to be sad or maybe give up,â Kappelhof said. âI just chose to stay positive and work my way back.â
As a result, the pair leaned on one another greatly in the teamâs absence. They maintained a regular training schedule at SeatGeek Stadium, with assistant athletic trainer Tyler Golden leading their workouts. For the Fireâs 8 a.m. kickoffs, the trio would meet up at the stadium early to watch their teammates play prior to their session.
âFor us, the games in the morning, we had a little party in the locker room,â Azira said. âWeâd bring our tea, weâd bring our breakfast, and weâd sit down and watch the game. Me and Johan, we always tried to be in touch.â
They kept in regular contact with the group inside the MLS bubble as well, shifting their focus from contributions on the field to providing positivity while off of it.
âWe used to talk to Jonny (Bornstein) and CJ, (Sapong)â Azira said. âWe used to FaceTime, do some video calls and talk to them. We also have a group chat. We encourage each other. On gamedays, weâll be like, âHey guys, good luck today,â and stuff like that.â
That energy was reciprocated in a big way prior to the teamâs group stage finale against Vancouver, when the team sent love back home for Azira, Kappelhof, and fellow injured teammates Jeremiah Gutjahr and Luka StojanoviÄ.
âThey even did a video for us,â Azira added. âThat was the coolest thing for the guys to do for us. That was really nice, like âGuys, we do this for you.â Itâs a good group. I hope we can continue to improve and get results for our club and for our fans.â
âIf you have a good group, you can get good results, and I know they are coming.â
The Fire would ultimately exit the MLS is Back Tournament following the group stage. While neither of Azira or Kappelhof hid their disappointment in missing the opportunity to share in both the highs and the lows of the tournament experience, theyâre now focused only on the opportunities that lie ahead of them.
âYou canât predict soccer,â Azira said. âThe coaches are studying and know what we can do better, what we can improve as a group. Itâs created an opportunity for us to be able to push each other and to give our best each and every day. It gives us an opportunity to get together and do things much better.â
The 2020 regular season resumes one week from Thursday, when the Fire will begin a stretch of six matches in 24 days - three at home, and three on the road. A trip Columbus Crew SC on Aug. 20 (6:30 p.m. CT | WGN-TV, ESPN+, TUDN WRTO AM 1200) is the first test that awaits, which then sets up the Clubâs long-awaited return to Soldier Field on Aug. 25 against FC Cincinnati (6:30 p.m. CT | WGN-TV, ESPN+, 105.1 WOJO-HD2).
âTheyâre good teams weâre playing against, so we need to prepare well,â Kappelhof said. âI think weâre all motivated to do well and to get revenge from the tournament. I think the guys worked hard and there was quality, but we didnât reward ourselves. Thatâs something we can take revenge on in these games. Itâs very important for us to have good results. Iâm looking forward to it.â
The tight window of matches and the on-going adherence to COVID-19 health and safety protocols make the Fireâs upcoming phase one challenge a unique one, but Azira is confident in the Club's support for its players.
âItâs different, but itâs something we have to adapt to,â Azira said. âWe have to be ready to go no matter what. At the end of the day, weâre soccer players and we should be able to adapt no matter the situation.â
âIâm feeling great,â he added. âOur trainers have done a good job to prepare us as much as possible. I look forward to providing for the team and to contribute as much as I can.â